The year of pain, desperation, hitting rock bottom... that was 2015. But it was the also the year that I grew closer to God, trusted Him like never before, had to allow others to help me and realized how judgmental I had been in so many ways. Ouch! What a painful, yet needed experience this past year was! It was the year I started getting back the "old Bev" - not the sinful one but the one that was strong and able to stand up for herself and say NO when needed. Not sure how I lost her but she is back.
Sure, this past year was full of losses - my baby and my uterus - but it was also a year of miracles. As a wise older woman told my husband; it was the year your wife didn't die! Yes - instead of saying this was the year that I lost my baby, that I lost my uterus, that I developed numerous health issues and believed I was dying........It was the year I did NOT die, though Heaven would have been nice a bit early but my husband is thankful it wasn't my time!
I'm still having so many health problems but I still believe that God knows all about it and He ALLOWED these things to happen for my good. Above all, I must make it to Heaven. Above all, my family must make it to Heaven. So many friends have quit - they stopped! They went back to the world, they resurrected their dead, sinful self and sadly, they are dying and going to hell but I chose not to be one of them! It's still You and me Jesus!!
I thought I was done with this blog and closed it down earlier this year but decided to reopen it and see what happens.
Here are my most memorable posts of 2015: